Too Strong to Lose.

I've got another confession to make... I'm your fool.

Everyone's got their chains to break... holdin' you.

Were you born to resist... or be abused?

Is someone getting the best, the best, the best, the best of you?

Is someone getting the best, the best, the best, the best of you?

Are you gone and onto someone new?

I needed somewhere to hang my head... without your noose.
You gave me something that I didn't have... but had no use.

I was too weak to give in... too strong to lose.

My heart is under arrest again... but I break loose.

My head is giving me life or death... but I can't choose.

I swear I'll never give in... I refuse.

Is someone getting the best, the best, the best, the best of you?

Is someone getting the best, the best, the best, the best of you?

Has someone taken your faith?
Its real, the pain you feel.

You trust, you must... confess.

Is someone getting the best, the best, the best, the best of you?

Has someone taken your faith?

Its real, the pain you feel.

The life, the love you'd die to heal.

The hope that starts, the broken hearts.

You trust, you must... confess.

Is someone getting the best, the best, the best, the best of you?

Is someone getting the best, the best, the best, the best of you?

I've got another confession my friend... I'm no fool.

I'm getting tired of starting again... somewhere new.

Were you born to resist... or be abused?

I swear I'll never give in... I refuse.

Is someone getting the best, the best, the best, the best of you?

Is someone getting the best, the best, the best, the best of you?

Has someone taken your faith?

Its real, the pain you feel

You trust, you must... Confess.

Is someone getting the best, the best, the best, the best of you?

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At the start of a new year, like most people, I look back at what the previous year has brought me & what I want for myself in the year ahead. 2013 was undoubtedly a year I will never forget. I've faced tremendous loss, while simultaneously gaining tremendous love. My faith has been tested in ways I wasn't ready for, but somehow I'm still standing. For most of us, every day is a battle. How we fight those battles will determine the pieces of ourselves that make up our character... and our character is everything.   

We absolutely have the ability to choose our own happiness. We accept the love we think we deserve and we are the masters of our own destiny. We often make the mistake of thinking that these things are out of our control with rationalizations like "you can't choose who you fall in love with"... and it's true, you can't, but you can choose how you react to the way that love affects you, good or bad. We cannot control the actions of others... we can only hope that the people we let in won't hurt us, that they treat us with the same respect we do them and that their hearts are true. But when all we've hoped for falls apart, who is to blame? Is it our fault for putting so much of ourselves into something? Or is it their fault for not seeing the good that's in front of them? We've all been guilty of letting someone get the best of us. 

The obvious solution is to build walls around yourself to make sure that shit doesn't happen again. Obvious yes... but also very stupid. Not only will you be missing out on something potentially amazing that could make you really happy (even for a short time), but you'll also be depriving someone else of your awesomeness. 

I have always prided myself on following my heart and sometimes, well most times, well pretty much every time, I've gotten my ass kicked. I love hard... so if I love you, I'm going to make sure you know it... every day. Tomorrow isn't promised and with all the terrible things I've seen in this life, love seems to be the only thing that softens the blow. I wasted a lot of time and a lot of love on someone I thought was worthy of my heart. I tossed out other relationships whenever he'd pop back up in my life & every time he let me down. He was always very selfish, I just chose not to see it. Thank God I finally did, because he never deserved me. 

I've once again found myself in a situation where following my heart has landed me in a less-than-stellar position... and ironically, it was a direct result of him following his. But this time it's a bit different... and a lot more worth the battle. I can only hope things work in my favor, but ultimately it's out of my hands. All I can say is that when you're lucky enough to find someone with a beautiful heart, don't let them go. Remember that true, genuine things are rarely perfect. Same goes for people. We all screw up. The years will keep coming at us faster and faster and we have to make the best of them. 

Come and get it, 2014!

m.